Wildest dreams

Since young, i've always had friends that doubted me. I don't know whether i should call them friends after what they've done to me. I'm emotionally scarred by their words and actions.

"You'll never score higher than me."
"GPA of 2.4?! You're stupid!"
"Hidayah, you'll never be a teacher."
"You want to be a teacher? *laughs*"
"Eh masih menggangur eh?"

I feel like i made really bad choices in life, especially choosing friends. I have alot of 'friends' who are sarcastic to me 24/7.
Really, if you have nothing positive to say, then just keep your mouth shut.

Again and again i proved all of them wrong, doesn't matter whether they know it or not. Cause i know that i did it. Surprisingly, i did it.

I graduated with a much higher GPA and now i'm on this crazy journey of being a teacher.

You know, there's so many things that I want to do in life. So many things that i want to achieve.
1. Travel freely.
2. Be a malay teacher.
3. Get married.
4. Treat my future husband right.
5. Raise up my kids right.
I really want to have a happy family that I did not get as a kid or even now.

I just want a simple happy life.

It's perfectly ok to pause your life for a while.

This journey has been nothing but difficult. This journey has made me realised that you need to be patient always. This journey has made me much weaker but I know at the end of this journey, I will look back and be proud of myself. Simply because of the fact that I won't give up.

Dear heart,
Please take care of yourself. Your owner has not been taking care of you well. Please be patient in handling feelings and emotions because your owner needs to rest. Your owner needs time to make you feel better again. Dear heart, teach me how to love myself again.
Love, your owner.