Nothing is the same anymore. Pain is what I'm going thru right now. Pain is indeed inevitable. I'm hurt. But all I can do is to pray for myself to be patient, to be calm and to not hurt others. If they hurt you, just close your eyes, take a deep breath and put your ego aside. You'll learn to accept things. No matter how hard it is, no matter how hard it gets, you'll be at this state where this no longer matters. However, when you try as hard as you can to make things back to normal, and the other party just cannot be bothered anymore. That's when it starts to get hurt even more. You'll be out of control. You'll just keep thinking about it. You'll keep telling yourself, "It's okay. It's okay." But its NOT.
And then when the time comes for you to tell your side of the story, that's when things will go haywire. You'll start hurting the other party. But the problem is, should you tell the truth when its gonna hurt the other party or should you just keep quiet and its gonna hurt you even more badly. Then thats when you'll start to ponder. Is it you>others or others>you.
What should i do? I'm changing to become a person that I fear most. I know Allah has better plans for me. I hope just hope i don't fall before i even start trying.
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