I feel that I should put in more effort in making myself happy. It's just so tiring to please others. And I can never depend on others to make myself happy.

I really want to dig deep and bury myself in a hole. Or at least hide myself under the blanket till i'm ready to face another vicious cycle.

Truth is, I can easily make lots of friends but i can never make a friendship last. Because i give a piece of myself to everyone and it doesn't seem like alot. And I lose myself each time.